"When Brown looked closely, though, she saw something else: trauma. Hyper-vigilance and dissociation, for example, could be mistaken for inattention. Impulsiveness might be brought on by a stress response in overdrive."
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I was a very bright child and a willing learner. I had very good marks at school, excelling in two subjects and gaining a high mark higher than others for year ten English. This was complicated by the fact that I wasn't allowed in any classes at school as I was banned from the classroom. I got way too bored in class so what do you think sitting alone did to me.
The old "lets set you apart from everyone else", again - yes the repeat of my birth trauma all over again. I would not doubt for a second that I was severely affected by this treatment. The feeling of being completely ostracized in front of everyone.
I used to laugh about it to avoid feeling what I really felt. I would have took my life if it were two years previous, but I had toughened up a lot by this time and found a great way to deal with most of it was to laugh at it and just be even naughtier. Did it help? Who knows? I am still here today to be able to talk about it. Health professionals say I have dealt with this in a unique and successful way. Trying to focus on understanding the situation instead of fighting it.
I would say that the Queensland Government have a lot to answer for and I have been traumatized by that action along with many others since. This could have had a flow on effect to how I parented my children regarding school so therefore all of that is the result of this treatment by government staff and government carers.
I carried so much anger in my spirit I assaulted my science teacher and fought the toughest girl's in schoo,l Anne Rafter and Cathy Rowbottom and won. I got respect, but I had to fight for my life to get that. I am wondering how much of that original anger I still carry inside when I get to a point today where I can no longer deal and go into a mini meltdown and cry.
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