A sad indictment of our societies as a collective.

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts."
Albert Einstein

I continually find the inequality in the world a sad indictment of our societies as a collective.  The societies that consider themselves to be first world countries.  It is so obvious that the greed to hang on to the large amounts of wealth is what is making me feel sick.   I struggle to keep what I have because in this world of people who are like me, I am considered inhumane and not worth it. 

These opinions of others that are unwarranted because I still don't know what I did wrong is reinforcing Edith's brainwashing.  She continually belted me daily while yelling at me, "I should have been drowned at birth".  I had awful nightmares  that I would be drowned and I would not be able to survive it.

Why is the world such a cruel place?   I just want to forget about these things.   Yet as it turns out, the more acceptable,  those who are the so called "movers and shakers", are the ones causing most of the damage.  These people make me out to be less than a human.   This damage is killing me more each time. 
ORLANDO, FL - JULY 12: Caylee Anthony memorial where the 2-year-old child remains were found on July 12, 2011 in Orlando, Florida. Casey Anthony was found not guilty of first-degree murder, aggravated manslaughter and aggravated child abuse. (Image credit: Getty Images via @daylife)Slowly it is numbing me to the incidence that I have lost everything.  My children were all I ever wanted and I did not ever want this what I have.   I never dreamed for one moment that my life would be like this because I am so disabled emotionally.  I didnt even do this to myself and those that do it to them selves for fun are given the chances and the help and the extra goes.  This is what is playing on my mind.   It is because my mind is doing not much and left to continually think about the situation that I am in.  I really try to be brave and I do have friends but no one can do anything either.
I am so sick of being the burden, that people feel the need to bow their heads and walk past me quickly in hope that they do not have to speak to me at all!

Why is someone who needs so much help continually tortured and hurt so desperately in front of you all.   How does this happen.  Why do you all care when people have died.  They died because they felt like no one is listening and no one is listening and no one is helping and I can't do this much longer.  Today I am struggling with the inner pain again.  My psychologist says that I need to hate my mother and father for doing what they did.  I just don't know how to hate them,  I have no relationship with them to relate to.  That box is very empty and there is nothing in it.  Nothing to draw a feeling from.  The feeling is empty.

Images @ Eminpee Fotography -Fire station in Urunga on a job.

Want to know what is really happening in the world?

The world we live in today is a very different world to the times of the past.  We are so hooked up to all of this technology we talk about and use in our daily lives, ie the internet.  If you are reading this, then at this point we still have internet.  I get increasingly concerned about the space weather knocking the entire planet off the electricity grid so to speak.   Well wouldn't that change things around the world dramatically.  Think about this for a good while.  Think what a modern world with no electricity would be like.  Something from a horror movie is what I expect.

Strangled on South Arm

I feel prepared in a way.  I guess it is because I have lived a lifetime without this stuff and therefore I understand.  I grew up in a house that never had an electric stove, we had a wood fire.  The fire heated the hot water.  We had no washing machine either.  I watched Edith do the washing each day faithfully and do the big stuff in the Copper once a week over the fire.  Oh yes I remember this well.  I remember my green hula hoop and playing with it while Edith did the washing. 

So does this mean we may re visit this again in this lifetime of mine?  Who knows but some very educated amongst us say we will.  I have my seeds,  and amazingly enough I still have my many boxes of real books.  So many times I was tempted to lose these.  A voice inside tells me to hang on to these for now.  I often wonder will the kids love my books the way I have loved my books!  I do hope that Montana is set up in her own home when my passing time comes.  She will love my books but if she isnt set up it will become a burden to her.  So for her I hope she is settled.

West Coast Acid: http://news.sciencemag.org/sciencenow/2012/06/a-rising-tide-of-acid-off-calif...
Temperature Extremes: http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2012/06/120614131059.htm
China Spy: http://www.reuters.com/article/2012/06/15/us-china-usa-espionage-idUSBRE85E06...

REPEAT LINKS
Spaceweather: http://spaceweather.com/ [Look on the left at the X-ray Flux and Solar Wind Speed/Density]

HAARP: http://www.haarp.alaska.edu/haarp/data.html [Click online data, and have a little fun]

SDO: http://sdo.gsfc.nasa.gov/data/ [Place to find Solar Images and Videos - as seen from earth]

SOHO: http://sohodata.nascom.nasa.gov/cgi-bin/soho_movie_theater [SOHO; Lasco and EIT - as seen from earth]

Stereo: http://stereo.gsfc.nasa.gov/cgi-bin/images [Stereo; Cor, EUVI, HI - as seen from the side]

SunAEON:http://www.sunaeon.com/#/solarsystem/ [Just click it... trust me]

SOLARIMG: http://solarimg.org/artis/ [All purpose data viewing site]

iSWA: http://iswa.gsfc.nasa.gov/iswa/iSWA.html [Free Application; for advanced sun watchers]

NOAA ENLIL SPIRAL: http://www.swpc.noaa.gov/wsa-enlil/cme-based/ [CME Evolution]

RSOE: http://hisz.rsoe.hu/alertmap/index2.php [That cool alert map I use]

LISS: http://earthquake.usgs.gov/monitoring/operations/heliplots_gsn.php

Gamma Ray Bursts: http://grb.sonoma.edu/ [Really? You can't figure out what this one is for?]

BARTOL Cosmic Rays: http://neutronm.bartol.udel.edu//spaceweather/welcome.html [Top left box, look for BIG blue circles]

TORCON: http://www.weather.com/news/tornado-torcon-index [Tornado Forecast for the day]

GOES Weather: http://rsd.gsfc.nasa.gov/goes/ [Clouds over America]

INTELLICAST: http://www.intellicast.com/ [Weather site used by many youtubers]

NASA News: http://science.nasa.gov/science-news/science-at-nasa/

PHYSORG: http://phys.org/ [GREAT News Site!]

Always Check the Foreign News Sources as well!!!
Iran: Mehr News, TehranTimes
China: Xinhua, China.org, Chinadaily
Russia: Ria Novosti
Israel: Jerusalem Post, Israel National News, Haaretz
M/E: ArabNews, AlJazeera

Image by Mezza - A strangled tree on South Arm Road Raleigh South /  http://www.flickr.com/photos/melonpopzdropz/7188961449/in/photostream/

Sometimes you gotta live like and Indian but at other times you have to fight like a palestinian!

These are very true words... and words of the Luminaries.

Those words reminded me of a biblical story when Jesus was full of righteous anger and he overturned the money changers tables in the temples at Jerusalem.  Apparently, that was cool.

Well these days we are to be meek and mild like sheep but somehow we have to be tough and clever and sneaky to survive this strange world we live in.  Yesterday I heard of a man hurting a woman who was shopping and putting her groceries into her car and the man used a knife and stole her groceries!

I don't know what I would do now given the laws here in this country and if I was faced  with this situation!  The police and courts of Australia are locking up people who defend themselves against this kind of unsolicited violence and the true attackers are getting away with it.  If someone attacked me like this and I could get the knife off them, then I would definatley  use it on them if I could.  However it is deemed that you are then attacking and soyour jailed for this instead of your attacker! HUH can someone tell me what is wrong here! This cannot go on in our country.  How can we defend ourselves? 

This traumatizes me no end because I do not feel safe now that I know I cannot physically protect myself legally!  I have to let them stab me or I may go to jail if someone is hurt during my protecting myself.

The world is an awfully mixed up and severely confused place within which  we live  today.  Occupy movements have sprung up all over the planet.  GOOD ... we need to stand together against all of the government greed and ridiculousness of society  and the attitudes of the leaders of the world in general.  Who is behind this?    Who is pushing for life to be this way?  Not me.  I cannot understand what is happening anymore!  I know I am suffereing and so are my children and the families who come along now are going to be serious HAVES and HAVE NOTS!

Image by Mezza - Tee-Shirt I photographed in 2011

Sometimes you gotta live like and Indian but at other times you have to fight like a palestinian!

These are very true words... and words of the Luminaries.

Those words reminded me of a biblical story when Jesus was full of righteous anger and he overturned the money changers tables in the temples at Jerusalem.  Apparently, that was cool.

Well these days we are to be meek and mild like sheep but somehow we have to be tough and clever and sneaky to survive this strange world we live in.  Yesterday I heard of a man hurting a woman who was shopping and putting her groceries into her car and the man used a knife and stole her groceries!

I don't know what I would do now given the laws here in this country and if I was faced  with this situation!  The police and courts of Australia are locking up people who defend themselves against this kind of unsolicited violence and the true attackers are getting away with it.  If someone attacked me like this and I could get the knife off them, then I would definatley  use it on them if I could.  However it is deemed that you are then attacking and soyour jailed for this instead of your attacker! HUH can someone tell me what is wrong here! This cannot go on in our country.  How can we defend ourselves? 

This traumatizes me no end because I do not feel safe now that I know I cannot physically protect myself legally!  I have to let them stab me or I may go to jail if someone is hurt during my protecting myself.

The world is an awfully mixed up and severely confused place within which  we live  today.  Occupy movements have sprung up all over the planet.  GOOD ... we need to stand together against all of the government greed and ridiculousness of society  and the attitudes of the leaders of the world in general.  Who is behind this?    Who is pushing for life to be this way?  Not me.  I cannot understand what is happening anymore!  I know I am suffereing and so are my children and the families who come along now are going to be serious HAVES and HAVE NOTS!

Image by Mezza - Tee-Shirt I photographed in 2011