Three days to go and Matilda will be 22 years old.

This is an image of her when she was four years old.  So absolutely adorable.  How could anyone not love her.  She had the most defiant little temper though.

Matilda Sunshine Katherine Baldwin

This is my way of celebrating her birthday,  I have no physical contact with Matilda, she denies my existence. 

This hurts but it is alright with me if this is what she really feels she has to do in her life.  In the mean time, I will prepare for her birthday.

I will make a fabulous cake this year to celebrate it.  For  2013 it will have to be the Amy Johnson Cake with extra trimmings.  

We will have a special dinner and place a setting for Matilda.   We will sing her happy birthday's to the Universe with candles.

The universe knows how much I care.   This all may be a little out there, but it helps me.  The world cannot stop me from being the mother I was destined to be, no matter what.  

I toughen up a little more each day in order to let it slide off of me like water on a greasy ducks back in order for me to live my life. 

I don't understand everything, I probably will never really understand this.  I am not sure I have to

Images @ Eminpee Fotography

A womans highest calling is to lead a man to his soul, so as to invite him with source. Mans highest calling is to protect woman so she is free to walk the Earth unharmed.

Cherokee Proverb

The road to Gleniffer NSW

I am blessed to have this archetypical type man to watch over my every move.  My partner is the most caring and loving individual on this planet.  He is also so unique how he shows this love to me.  He would have to be one of the kindest people I have ever known.  Brice  is fair and firm.  He heaps love upon me in ways that make me light up inside.  I feel very loved.

Our old Gleniffer House

Today he is sending us off on a little journey not far from home, out to near where we used to live at Gleniffer.  I had such a wonderful time with the children and it was the most magic place to live.  We moved into town when Montana was nearly six years old.  I suppose she would remember it the least.


Atalanta my friend and myself are  heading to talk to the trees and just tell them we love them and lay a few things out in front of these guys,  I am so happy to be going to do this.   I want to feel this love from the Earth.  I know this will change my life forever.  It is one of those days, I can feel it in my bones.

Image by Mezza - Turn off to Gleniffer / Gleniffer Road and Roses Road corner.